Kanz,
I've never been good with things like this. I have been holding on to this feeling for the last few weeks. I wasn't sure if it was even normal to feel the way that I do for you. But what about anything is normal at this point?
I love you. I really do.
Maybe it's too sudden of me to share that with you. I have worded this a million different ways in my head.
"I have so much love for you."
"My love for your is so deep."
"I'm falling into it with you."
It's all just different ways for me to avoid saying the three little words to you. I love you.
I've been scared of the feeling I've been having for you. Maybe it's because I fear you don't feel the same. It's overwhelming-- because just a few weeks ago, you talked to me about how your main priority will be school and work for the near future. As of late, it seems like I've climbed my way up the ranks and lie pretty close to the top. Maybe it's in my head. But you have made me feel so loved and cared for the last few weeks, that I can't help but feel the way I do... And maybe, you feel the same way about me that I feel about you.
Whether or not... No-- you literally JUST texted me about how you put off your school essay to spend the last two nights with me.
Fuck.
I am a priority, aren't I?
You skipped class last week to stay in bed with me longer. You were late to class by an hour to sit at the beach and eat a sandwich with me.
I am so sorry. I have been so blind to all of these little actions and adjustments you've made for me. I had different expectations of what love looked like. I put your love in a box. I know what it looks like now.
Thank you for showing me love, too.
- Aura