My heart skips a beat when I think of Kanz-- GOD. I feel like a child!! My heart is so wildly excited to see him tonight. Oh my god I can't even write-- how ridiculous is that?!? But for once... I just want to allow myself to feel this. To sit in this. I feel like crying. Bleh!! I love it!!
We listened to the Grateful Dead on Monday in his car while eating sandwiches at the beach. It felt so wonderful. He dropped me off. Before I left, he took my hand and told me that he is deeply infatuated with me... Very fond of me and the time we had been spending together. He held my face in his hands and gave me a kiss.
"I feel myself falling for you, too."
Oh, the way I was walking on a cloud the rest of the day.
I want to be his. I want him to mark me all over the place. I want people to know I'm his. Is that wildly obsessive and insane? Maybe a little! Let me sit in this for a little bit. It's lovely to be obsessed with someonee in this way.