I feel so scared. I opened up Feeld earlier and came across Kanz's profile from when we matched. It had been updated with a picture of another girl I had never seen or heard of before. My heart dropped. We're poly-- of course he's still seeing other people. Why wouldn't he? Everything in my brain is telling me "You aren't good enough. You aren't a good sub, something he's looking for. He said I love you because it was a heat of the moment thing-- he doesn't ACTUALLY love you. GET. A. GRIP. You aren't worthy of it. Certainly not from him. You love him more than he loves you"
But, he shows you he loves you so differently. Something you have not seen before. It's new. It's different. It's hard to comprehend. I want to cry-- IO almost want to just break up with him so I don't feel this way anymore! That's selfish. That's inconsiderate.
That's... Running away. We don't run away anymore. We face the feeling and we... We show it love. We show it kindness. We sit with it and understand it. We let this feeling... Out. Don't box her in, anymore. Let her out and embrace her. Let her cry. Let her be heard and listen to her. She hasn't been heard by you in a long time.
Let's catch up, okay?