I hate that I keep writing about Kanz. This sucks lol. We were literally together all weekend-- why do I feel some type of way?
We talked about our dating and stuff. He asked me to go to a concert with him on Saturday. We went. It was a lot of fun.
Fuck.
I like him so much-- I hate it.
He mentioned he still had his dating apps, he's still going out with people, hooking up, etc. But I'm allegedly the only one he's consistently seeing? It felt special initially-- but that's like... Polyamory. I suppose? My heart felt funky and sad. I can't figure out what's going on. I think I feel a sense of frustration? Why? I don't know!!
Maybe it's jealousy? I mean, I like him a lot! I think it's just the excitement that makes me want to see him all the time. I'm just feeling frustrated... Maybe it's because he doesn't want to spend every waking moment with me. lol
He texted me saying he was out drinking with his cohorts. He mentioned they were all underage, like... Of drinking age, of course. It sat weird with me. It made my tummy hurt. I'm gonna go on a run after work.
I think i need a good cry.